Coming into high school, I had the best, Christian friends that I could have ever asked for, but I pushed them away. High school can definitely be cruel, though, it is only cruel if you let it be, like I did. I pushed God out of my life completely in high school, and it sent me down a spiraling funnel of disappointment. I did anything I could to be popular, instead of doing anything I could to please God. I let God down, and I will never get rid of that regret. As I found out, anything without God is bound to fail.
When I first started high school as a freshman, I was in the popular crowd. I was best friends with the girls that everyone wanted to be friends with, I was talking to one of the "lady's men" of the school, and I was in marching band, which was cool at the time. The friends that I had was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was finally fitting in, and they liked me for me. The guy that I was talking to was a true gentleman. We talked all the time. He carried my books, held the door for me, walked me to my sister's car, called me every night, called me "beautiful" and "angel." Truly, he was the perfect guy. I was on cloud nine, and nothing was going to stop my happiness.
Sometime within the time spent on my personal, dream cloud, reality shoved me off that cloud. Those best friends that I loved so much had led me into stuff that I am so embarrassed of. I cheated my way through freshman year. I was just making it by with my grades, and that was only because of cheating. I had started to say words that I would never say today, I had turned into a mean girl, and I looked down on everyone. Oh, and that perfect guy, well, let's just say he had a good front on.
I don't know if it was him messing around with other girls, or the fact that he got inches from my face and was yelling at me in front of the whole band class that showed me who he really was. Reality had finally hit me, and it hit me hard.
Needless to say, I lost all of those people in my life after freshman year. They were fake friends that were only going to lead me down a worse path. I got rid of that jerky guy in my life as well. All of the sin that I had committed showed me that I wasn't truly saved. When I did get saved during my junior year, I still went against God completely. I let the kids at that school ruin my relationship with God. I didn't get a good relationship with God back until after I graduated, and I can't understand how God could have been so merciful to me when I was so horrible to Him. Though, He did, and I am so grateful to Him for that.
For anyone in high school or about to be in high school, please take my advice, and follow God. I thought that pleasing everyone at school and being liked was what high school was about, but it's not. Those popular kids that made me feel so inferior in high school aren't even around anymore. I let them make such an impact in my life, and now, they aren't in my life at all. If I could go back, I would choose the unpopular crowd. I so wish I would have. They are such better influences than the popular crowd. The popular kids that I graduated with are still partying, drinking, and doing drugs, while the unpopular crowd are making something of themselves. They are the ones that are becoming successful. Trust me when I say that it isn't worth being popular, but it will be worth following God. Don't be like me. Don't let people ruin your relationship with God just because they seem to have it all. No person, or status is worth the regret that I now feel because of what I did to God. Take the chance while you can, and choose God.
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