"She's too innocent for me."
The dooming words that was said about me my freshman year of high school. I had became best friends with this guy after we started talking on MySpace, old school, right? We would talk every minute that we were awake. If we weren't talking on MySpace, we were talking on the, new at the time, social media site, Facebook, and if we weren't talking on either of those, we were texting. He was just the sweetest guy, the most attractive guy in my eyes, and I adored him so much. Between class, he would come give me a hug, and it was like Heaven inside of his arms. It was something that I had never felt before for anyone. It was a genuine feeling that I couldn't shake. At the time, he rode the bus with my best friend. He would tell her how much he liked me, how pretty I was, and how he just knew he was going to marry me someday. Of course, my best friend told me everything that he said, and it made me happier beyond belief because I had truly come to love this guy. This guy and I talked for about a year before he suddenly cut me out of his life completely. It absolutely crushed me. I had this literal pain in my chest; a broken heart. I tried to text him, but he wouldn't respond. He wouldn't even look my way in the hall anymore, let alone hug me. Later on, he started dating one of my friends, who was quite the opposite of innocent. Around that time, my best friend asked him why he wasn't talking to me, and he said the dreaded words, "She's too innocent for me."
I would love to know why innocence is no longer wanted. God loves innocence. God is innocent. He is without waiver and fault. To be Godly, we are to try and mimic God's life to the best of our ability, and this means withstanding a level of innocence. A lot of people mock those that seem innocent. I was mocked a lot in high school for not being immoral, and I sure wasn't faultless. People will laugh because a person doesn't know ungodly things, the majority of it being sex. Why should unmarried teenagers be experts on that topic? The world has lost its respect for an innocent mind. An innocent mind is of God. When the mind is aware of the evils of the world, the relationship with God suffers from it. Once our innocence leaves, its impossible to get it back. Sure, we can mend our relationship with God, but we will still have the worldly knowledge stuck in our minds.
I still consider myself to be pretty innocent and I'm twenty. I love not having knowledge about the evils that take over so many people's minds. It brings me closer to God, being closer to His image. Of course, my innocence separates me from many people. I find that I can't talk to the same people I used to because they have lost their innocent mind. We no longer have the same interests or goals for our lives. They have been led astray from God, and I'm still trying to live for Him. I don't need friends that are of the world though, they will only bring me out of God's path as well. I will learn things when they are brought unto me by God. For example, after I get married, I will learn about the things that are set aside for marriage. There is no rush to "grow up," as the world says. We can learn what we need to in God's time. God will bless us for waiting on his time, and for keeping our minds set on the glory of God.
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